There are many days when I wonder why I am even doing this adventure.I sit and think about all that I have gone through,and all that I will go through and I wonder if I am strong enough for this.
There are so many roadblocks that keep popping up and its taking forever to get to the final step. :( Sometimes I just dunno about all of it.
I am wondering if this is normal. I sometimes feel so defeated.
Then I am reminded of why I want to do this. For my life. I need to get my life back. Just going up and down the stairs here at home is a chore that is totally embarassing.
Funny story: DJ and I were in the card shop looking at the halloween gear. Next year we wanna have a major halloween party. I found a costume that I totally adored. Problem: its a size 10/12. I bought it anyhow, it was only 5 bucks, and its inspiration to why I want to do this. I WILL GET INTO THAT !!!!!! if not, then I will squeeze whatever squishy bits I have into it and horrify my friends :) muhahahaha!!!
At any rate, i am in this for the long run. Sometimes I just need to get things off my chest. I guess this is the place for it I suppose :)
You are right. This IS the perfect place. That way we can support you. Keep going. You will do this
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