Depression isn't helping things...

So our health insurance sucks A$$ and I am paying for it in more ways than one. We are allowed to fill a prescription once at the local store, and then after that, it needs to be sent into Express Scripts (or as I call them lovingly, Slow Fuck Up Scripts). Anyhow, I digress.... At the moment, I am without my anti-depressants, my diabetes meds, and my fibro meds. Which in turn is turning me into a raving lunatic. :(

*sighs softly* I am over sensitive, cranky, bitchy, and feel like a water retaining sea cow. PMS is not helping either though. GAH!

I want to eat everything in site. NOM NOM NOM! Although, I am trying to eat my yogurt, drink my water, and not sit on my arse all day.

Let's hope that my meds get here ASAP! Cause I might just go loco on someone :(

Back on track!

Today I headed over to Border's bookstore while they were having their going out of business sale. I ended up coming out of there with 2 new books.

I got a food/exercise tracker called : Flat Belly Diet Journal by Liz Vaccariello, editor in chief of Prevention. Its all about writing your way to a flatter belly. I am truely hoping that this can get me through the rough spots, and show me where I go wrong with my eating.

The other book I got is called : feeling fat,fuzzy or frazzled? by Richard Shames, MD. and Karilee Shames, Ph.D., R.N. This book is about jump starting your thyroid in 5 days. Its a 3 step program. I have hypothyroid and probably have since I was little. Just noone ever checked it. They just kept telling my mom I would have a "growth spurt" although the only growing I did was outwards, and not upwards!

Lately I have been thinking alot more about the gastric bypass surgery. I know that in the long run that its a quick fix, but that my mental state of mind needs to be in better check. I am working on that. SLOWLY. but surely. Till then I will try different ways of losing weight.

Today I am feeling: Happy
Today my body is feeling: sore and achey

Tomorrow can only get better.

.....blegh....

Being on "vacation" is not good for ones diet/weightloss/etc. You snack, eat, drink, and be lazy :P

Today is the wake for DJs grandma. The immediate family has arrived. Now the fun begins /sarcasm. :( Funerals depress me more than anyone knows. It brings back memories of my momma dying. I can relive the day of her funeral over and over in my head. And my heart breaks over and over :(

I know that for most of you, this was a weightloss blog, but honestly, I am not losing weight at this moment. But guess what, I am going to post what I want here no matter what :P